how can i live when i can't leave my room because there are people in the house i don't know? Most of them are gone now, one left and i'm so drained and feel so shit i can't bring myself to leave my room. Not even the pangs of hunger or the fact my bf is down there will get me out. I'm scared. I can't explain it to anyone. Last night i managed to stay in the room when they came back from being out all day only to be turfed out because they needed my chair. why i'm scared? i don't want them to see me, I can't speak, i get so scared i can't deal with it and just freak out and run off. so yes i'm a freak, they think i'm a freak and i'm stuck hiding in my own home. This hurts so much, I just want to be ok and not worry about these things. I'm only just existing, i can't live, its just a waste. I'm hungry, awake for 4 hours, not able to get breakfast because i'm scared. I'm pointless. Today I feel like I am back to my lowest point, all that work means absolute shit because I can't leave my stupid room and all i wanna do is die.