I just dont ever feel happy anymore, and at night time its the worst and is my low point. In the next few weeks I will be losing my friend who lives with me and my other best friend, because both of them are going to college. Im also sort of in love with my other friend whos leaving and ill miss her alot. And im afraid ill never get to talk to her or see her again and that makes methink about not wanting to live anymore. I dont know or think thats reason enough to kill myself but it sure makes me deeply depressed thinking about it all the time.