I am mentally ill to the point of unemployment. Just to say before you judge, I would like to change my unemployment. There are two volunteering places in my town which don't require references so I'm starting there next week to see how I get on and pass the time and get references for work if it goes well. I am apparently good looking though, good at my hobbies and read quite a bit. I was dux of my high school but had to drop out of uni with my difficulties. My mum says a realistic future for me is living in a flat without carers but without working. I would like a girl who was also good looking and nice. Those are my requirements really. She could be unable to work and mentally ill, as long as she wasn't seriously disfigured by binge eating or anorexia (I have sympathy for such people but am not physically attracted). I don't expect her to have hobbies or be well read or have done exceptionally in education...I just want some company to help me get through life. I saw an episode of skins once and liked cassie. It seems reasonable to me that I could find this female equivalent of myself and marry her. Obviously I don't think anyone is obliged to marry me though. But apparently males and females look for different things though, females generally considering income a big factor but males not so much. I'd rather be alone than settle though. I think I can live alone, but I don't want to miss out on company and love. I probably have less need than average for companionship, but I'd still like it to some degree. A big reason why I manage now with so little company is because I have my parents to talk to. In the past I had siblings but they've got busy lives now with uni and work.