I'm not sure whether this is the appropriate forum. I intend to kill myself but I do not suffer from suicidal feelings. I suffer from a constellation of neurological disorders that lead to pain that makes me want to die. suicide is my solace. It eases my mind to know that if my life becomes unmanageable, I <mod edit ... method .. allofme...> my name is Lorn. I don't really care to hear why I "shouldn't" do it -I'll bet my life that you don't know. There's still a lot of music I haven't heard, and there are films I'd like to see, and my dog would miss me, and it might hurt so i haven't done it yet (except for that one time). I get confused and I forget, of course, no atheist regrets his own death.