Messed it up again. I thought Id take enough <Mod Edit: methods> to be able to end it. But No, apparantly not. My friend called police on me who came in to my flat to find me passed out and then I was taken to hospital. Blood tests showed it wasn't in need of treatment. I cant even do that properly. That horrible nurse was there again and she was so horrible to me. Ther was one nice one who wasnt off with me. Why do I feel like this I dont know. My counsellor wants to write to my doc to suggest firther help but who knows, maybe he thinks I dont need it!