I am five months pregnant. The father of the child, whom I had dated for over seven years, recently left me. He left for another girl who he had been talking to for a few months behind my back. He wants nothing to do with the baby and has nothing but extremely cruel things to say to me and rub the fact that he has a new girlfriend in my face. He does it constantly. He used to be a very kind person until he left me, and now he's a fucking monster who seems to get a real kick out of making me feel ugly and hated. I had become very mentally dependent on him. I don't have any friends or family I can talk to in an attempt to get through this and I'm so scared and depressed and ready to be done with this. I even have a plan set up. I want to put my baby up for adoption immediately after birth, so he never has to see this hideous piece of garbage that brought him into this world. After I get out of the hospital, <Mod Edit:Shades - methods>.. The only thing I have left to do is find a home for my cats before I do it. (No, I am not a drug addict. I just happen to know a drug dealer.) I am so ready to just give up.. and I feel like this is my last chance..