A few weeks ago my best friend told me she is pregnant. the news struck me and shocked me so bad. i couldnt help but thinking that "everybody go on with their lives while im the only one stuck in an endless hopeless present". my reaction was (and still is): i dont want her as my friend anymore. i have to burn bridges with her. i know its a wrong reaction, she is my best friend, but i cant help it. it makes me see what i dont have and will never have and it makes me feel suicidal. also, i dont feel like going on pretending everything in fine and im happy for her and put up a fake smile while everything is not ok, im not happy for her and i dont feel like smiling at all. i managed not to see her during these weeks, but sooner or later i'll have to see her i guess... maybe even tonight. what should i do? how should i behave with her?