Hi. im kinda new here guys.i just found this site.but here's my story(hope you can read)My father had this very horrendous rare brain disease. He's up to it like 2 years now. He's bedridden(vegetable state) and needs full time caregiving in all of things you can ever imagine. I need to stop working for now to help caregiving. I live with my mom and my sister who are very very emotionally abusive!. like you wanna kill yourself living with them(im dead serious). blabbering how their life suck on me. blame me on their faults. Shouting.calling names. and all unnecesarry things toxic people do to bring you down. I love my father. very responsible. guilt is creepling me if i leave my dad from these two who cant take care of my dad very well( my dad is heavy he needs a man to take care of him). I just turned 23. graduated college and i want to pursue my career but my family is not supportive about it and makes me sad about my life(not sure if term is correct). Nearly 1 year unemployed now. i remember myself crying last month because they blame me again for things that is not important considering that dad needs more attention. this night we fought again. i dunno but suicidal thoughts suddenly creeped in. Im actually a strong person on these kinds of BS. But damn this hit me hard. I feel bad and cant feel any emotions. i just want to vent it out cause its so heavy not talking it somewhere or someone. Im in a prison for real.