i dont think i can stop myself tonight and just have to get this out. its stupid. its not stupid but it is its been over 3 weeks since i cut and the urges have been so bad but i havent let myself give in and its been so hard but this is like the one thing i have to show myself im not completely weak, stop from giving in comletely..yet. its not like i havent SI'd in those weeks but it still feels like an acheivement. but tonight i dont know i dont think i can stop myself. a friend slipped. an online friend ok, but we decided to stop together, five months ago, i slipped after 5 days, pathetic. she didnt. why does this make me want to cut now? i feel so stupid and crap.