In the next few weeks probably. I have no idea what to do with these feelings..,I don't seem to really act like a 'normal' suicidal person. I can't do anything, I'm stuck in this place between life and death. I'm going to burn and destroy everything I've ever written, all my clothes, smash up my computer. If I could destroy everything I've touched I would. What the hell was I born for? Someone once told me I should have been strangled at birth, and you know they were right. What the hell am I going to do? And I'm scared because of the method but it's the only thing that will work really. And I'm scared because I have to destroy this part of me telling me not to die.