Problems with cocaine

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by Ruby, Mar 22, 2008.

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  1. Ruby

    Ruby Well-Known Member

    When does recreational drug use become a problem?

    Recently i've noticed that i've been doing more and more coke. I need double the amount my friends do to get the same effect and i've started doing it alone at home. I just feel like I can't function without it - I start feeling irritable, tired and depressed. I spend more money on it than ever and I don't really feel like eating anymore. I can't experience happiness, or even function properly unless i'm high. I also smoke lots of cannabis (which i've been doing for many years) and have taken other drugs in the past. I don't really feel like I can talk about it without being labelled a 'cokehead' or something. I can't talk to my friends because they do drugs themselves every weekend and would laugh at me for being so weak. It's funny because my father is a specialist in drug addiction/alcoholism and goes to prisons and hospitals giving people their methadone. He'd be so disappointed in me if he knew that I wasn't much better than the people he treats. I guess I could just continue to do it until I end up dying..
  2. Ruby

    Ruby Well-Known Member

    Cocaine is a lot more acceptable than injecting heroin or smoking crack though, isn't it? It'd be a lot worse if I was a junkie living on the streets. Lots of people do cocaine, it's viewed as being an 'upper class' drug so it isn't that bad.
  3. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni

    If I worry that my drug use might be a problem... then it already IS a problem or it wouldn't be worrying me. That's the way I see it anyway. That's how it was with me and alcohol. WHen I started wondering if it was a problem then I knew it WAS a problem. Just my two cents...:twocents:
  4. resistance

    resistance Staff Alumni

    Hey Ruby, I'm not well up on this subject but I'm wondering, considering your dad helps those addicted to drugs, presumably, he knows a lot about it - don't you think he'd be supportive of you and possibly even help you somehow? I hope you manage to sort this somehow and your dependency lessens.
  5. Montage

    Montage Well-Known Member

    Ruby, this is what I posted in the previous blog you had started on cocaine

    ruby hun... i read where you said you were in shock because they referred you and you dont feel you are a drug addict... but in the post previous you said you NEED it... and now you are saying you do it 5 times a week.. you see where im going with this?
    I finally came to realize that I was a coke addict one night in my therapist office. The words he was saying, it just hit me. I will be an addict as long as I live. Whether I ever do it again or not, its the drug I will always have temptation for and a problem with. I did cocaine when i was 14 for the first time. Im now cocain free for 2 months...and Im 25.. thats 11 years of cocaine use... I was doing up to 2 eight balls a day, then i started shooting it, not to mention all the other drugs I was doing at the same time, lsd, ex, herion, herb, pills, alcohol, anything i could get my hands on. I guess what really got me to stop was my best freind overdosed and was in the icu for 2 months. he survived and has since gone to rehab and is doing wonderful. After that happened i realized how much of a problem I had and I didnt want that to happen to me. He had done so much coke over the years the doctors told him he had the heart of a 70 year old man. the effects of the drugs dont go away either. you are HURTING yourself hunnie! it breaks my heart to hear how many ppl have struggles with this drug. It took literally me loosing every freind. they all did drugs and if i was around it or had a connect, id call or hang out and get some. i guess im just saying, please try and get help now before it even gets worse.. because if you stay on this path it will get alot worse and then its going to be way bigger than you.. please seek the treatment you need. you dont need a drug to make you feel better, you are beautiful just the way you are. there are so many other ways of coping that are healthy for you.. please let me know if there is anything I can do for you...

    Cocaine is just as bad as herion and crack IS cocaine.. there are lots more ppl that shoot cocaine than herion.. dont fool yourself hun.. your coke problem IS a problem and Im really worried about you.. i was right where you are a few years back, I dont want it to take loosing things and having so many regrets to make you stop like it did me.... please talk with your dad, he can help you!
  6. Ruby

    Ruby Well-Known Member

    Arrrrgh i've just wrote a long reply to this thread and lost it :sad:

    Thank you for the reply, Montage. I've only just read your response after it was mentioned in another thread.

    I haven't got the strength to type much at the moment because my thoughts seem all messed up and I can't think clearly. I'm just so tired.
  7. Beret

    Beret Staff Alumni

    Im sorry Ruby that youve the feeling you need it. Let me just tell you that i believe it was mainly coke i was shooting in my teens (in Venezuela where you buy it by the bag of 5g or more). What had started as the occasional line let me doing it ten times or more in my high school to continue it all night :( Later when there was no coke available, well h was easier to get in germany. Please talk to your father. Please... Havent taken any drugs for about ten years, but i learnt it the hard way (coma four weeks). Feel free to pm me anytime or my msn is
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