Since a young girl I've self harmed, because of the amount of knowledge I have on the subject, being around self harmers online constantly and talking about it... It's all become very normal for me. I have to stop myself talking about it when I'm talking to people who don't have any experience with this side of things.
I also forget to cover my scars a lot. My left arm is covered in knife and razor scars and they are quite noticable, they're silver against my skin so... one of the first things you see when looking at my arm.
My scars make me very depressed because I know that by the time I'm 18 I'm going to have one hell of a lot more because I relapse so often. I know how most people judge self harmers and I know that I will be treated like a 'freak' because of it.
I wanted to ask people something because it's a very mixed reaction.
I'd like to say first that everyone knows I'm a self harmer, most of my family know (not all but I've been more open lately) my school know, local doctor and mental health clinic do. My friends know, basically everyone knows. Whilst I am a little ashamed of them I can't take the heat of the summer, I can't constantly wear sleeves to cover them and elbow length mesh gloves are annoying.
I wanted to ask what people think about a self harmer letting their scars show. It could cause a lot of problems with my family I know, my mother would go ballistic.
But I can't deal with trying to hide it when everyone knows. I don't think anyone would comment as I rarely see anyone, even on public transport I don't see anyone familiar.
I know people would consider me an attention seeker. I am not proud of my scars nor do I feel anything positive about them. I don't want to hide them because I don't want to get back into the pattern of being obsessed with them being hidden. The only thing I feel worried about is if children notice it, but you can lie about stuff like that if they're young enough.
As I can't decide what would be best I wanted to see what other people think, asking close friends and family will be too biased so this is the best thing I can think of.
Thank you.
I also forget to cover my scars a lot. My left arm is covered in knife and razor scars and they are quite noticable, they're silver against my skin so... one of the first things you see when looking at my arm.
My scars make me very depressed because I know that by the time I'm 18 I'm going to have one hell of a lot more because I relapse so often. I know how most people judge self harmers and I know that I will be treated like a 'freak' because of it.
I wanted to ask people something because it's a very mixed reaction.
I'd like to say first that everyone knows I'm a self harmer, most of my family know (not all but I've been more open lately) my school know, local doctor and mental health clinic do. My friends know, basically everyone knows. Whilst I am a little ashamed of them I can't take the heat of the summer, I can't constantly wear sleeves to cover them and elbow length mesh gloves are annoying.
I wanted to ask what people think about a self harmer letting their scars show. It could cause a lot of problems with my family I know, my mother would go ballistic.
But I can't deal with trying to hide it when everyone knows. I don't think anyone would comment as I rarely see anyone, even on public transport I don't see anyone familiar.
I know people would consider me an attention seeker. I am not proud of my scars nor do I feel anything positive about them. I don't want to hide them because I don't want to get back into the pattern of being obsessed with them being hidden. The only thing I feel worried about is if children notice it, but you can lie about stuff like that if they're young enough.
As I can't decide what would be best I wanted to see what other people think, asking close friends and family will be too biased so this is the best thing I can think of.
Thank you.