Hi I am struggling right now with the reality that I am a social care professional. I am meant to, and want to, focus on other people and make their circumstances better. In order to do this I a) have to focus and concentrate b) have to be able to feel emotion and empathise c) have to function on a basic level i.e. self-care, showering, in order to get to work everyday. I am not really doing any of those three to the standard that is required. And I hate myself for it. It's humiliating. I feel like I am living a lie. 2 years ago I was relatively healthy and couldn't wait to get out into the field, and now I'm in it I can't do it. So I'm just curious if there are any other particularly health professionals who are in this predicament. How do you deal with it? What are your feelings/thoughts about it? Has this always been the case? I have the job I dreamed of for years, and I have never been in a worse place mentally. Obviously I feel terrified it's going to affect my clients, that goes without saying. So far it hasn't though I don't think I've been able to connect on an emotional level; I know this and it drives me crazy.