ps; I'm sorry

[on my own]

yeah, for a change I'm not even gonna yell at anybody or accuse people of anything, or attack the staff... nope... I'm just gonna say sorry for whatever I've done, whatever I'm doing and whatever I might do in the future.

maybe some of u guys know, I might have told some of you the first day I knew it myself. I've been sick a hell of a lot lately and recently they found out what was making me sick. I don't have much of my immune system left. the result is that an virus that's very common and doesnt make anybody sick is getting me sick and doing some serious damage. the last few days have been bad, I'm slowly getting sicker and though I'm still trying to keep my day as normal as possible, it's not working.

yeah, I got meds for it. but guess what? I never took them. I just figured that if my immune system wouldnt restore itself (the meds are to help getting my immunesystem back up) the virus would kill me. it's well on it's way to do so now, I'm getting worse pretty much everyday. soon I wont be at the computer anymore either, not if it goes on like this.

the last few days I've been feverish, said things I usually wouldnt say and acted weird at times all together. I'm sorry that it happened. I dunno how much longer I'll be able to get up and just be around, but if anything happens that I say something wrong.. please, I dont mean it in a bad way, even if it may sound like that. I just wanna make sure I apologize for things before I cant anymore.



but dont worry, my shining personality will be around as long as I can get out of my bed.

- mick




ps? I'm sorry.

 

[~CazzaAngel~]

:ohmy: I'm sorry you're sick hun. I wish you'd take your medicines, I know we really don't talk and you really never liked me but I don't wish anything bad to happen to you. I wish you'd help yourself. I would miss seeing you around and it would sadden me to know you've passed away... I know this probably means nothing though.. You'll be in my thoughts.



:hug:

 

[RainbowChaser]

:hug: Mick

 

[ybt]

:o

mick. take your meds.

 

[on my own]

carolyn; I never hated you, I simply hate some of the decicions you've made in chat concerning stuff that I care about. thats all. It never was anything personal.

alex, I'm not gonna start taking them. this is the oppertunity I have to just leave quietly without anybody being supicious. just another failed attempt to solve a problem with alternative medications. I'm gonna leave it at that.

and thanks for the hug sammie, same goes for carolyn btw.

 

[gentlelady]

Mick, please change your mind and let the meds help you. I know you are seeing this as your way out, but some of us aren't ready to lose you. Selfish? Maybe. Please really, really, really think this through. We need your shining personality around here for a very long time. Who else can I argue about the beeps with? Maybe now that your brain cells have divided :laugh: you can make a more informed decision and choose to stay with us. Take your meds hun. Please. :hug:

 

[Spearmint]

:hug: mick, please take your meds..seriously..

 

[~CazzaAngel~]

I don't remember doing anything in chat to you. But either way I do care and hope you take your meds. People do care for you. :hug:

 

[on my own]

well,

my mom found out today I'm not taking my meds at all and she told me I'm not getting back at the computer as long as I'm not taking meds. well, I'm still not planning on taking them.

so here's goodbye, though I might be able to sneak on before I get too bad. I'm gonna try, but it might not work. I would say see ya'll... but if I die I really dont want u guys to follow... so

goodbye

 

[ybt]

well, ultimately, it's your decision...