I had consultant review on Wednesday. As usual all that was mentioned was 'psychosis'. A psychosis that I don't even have. I told him that I was just depressed, that my main problem was depression and that I wanted help for that. Why won't they help me with that? I'm on an antidepressant but they couldn't care less about my low mood. All the mental health professionals care about is psychosis and antipsychotics. I directly told him that I wanted him to review my antidepressant medication and he didn't even reply. I told him that i'm quite happy with the seroquel yet he insisted on changing it. Fuck sake, why don't they care about mood disorders? Why do they insist on talking about schizo affective disorder, schizophrenia and other 'psychotic disorders'? I openly admit to having suicidal urges but once again they couldn't care less. What do they want to do? I tried to kill myself and ended up on life support yet they still don't help. What should I do next? Go the train to eastbourne and jump a cab to beachyhead and threaten to jump? I feel like doing that anyway. I just can't go on like this. Although I survived the overdose, nobody seemed that bothered about my after care. When I was planning it I thought that if I did survive that i'd be spending a long time in a psychiatric ward, maybe even under a section of the mental health act. What happened? I recovered medically and was sent home. I couldn't believe it. When I used to take minor overdoses (which I done for attention) I was sent to the psychiatric unit under a section. It doesn't make sense. It seems that if you make a genuine attempt to end your life they aren't too bothered, yet when you take a couple of pills as a mean of self harm rather than suicide they send you to the mental hospital. How fucked up is that? Seriously.