I went off my meds three weeks ago cold turkey because I wanted to die and I knew making myself unstable would help that process along. Well, now I don't quite feel the same way, and I have an appointment with my psychiatrist on Tuesday (who by the way already knows I went off my meds because my therapist already phone her to tell her last week). I am going to feel a bit foolish going in there, and I am not sure what to tell her. I feel like she might be angry or think I am wasting her time, or I am afraid to tell her about how suicidal I was...but I need to go and get back on my meds, and need to taper back on them so I need to see her...fuck, I am so dreading this appointment. I hate looking like such a loser every time I fail to actually kill myself, does anyone else ever feel like that?