Saw the pscyhiatrist today, she talks to me about suicidal thoughts and I find it very hard. She only knows about a couple of attempts. She asks me if I have anything around the house that I can use. I told her that I do. I don't want to lie to her. She wants me to get rid of them, but I can't do it. They are like my security blanket. Anybody else have this problem? I also told her that I fast occasionally of 1-2 duration, I actually do go for up to 15 days. She asked if I had eaten this morning I told her no. She just says just start eating. She thinks it affects your moods. But I can't do that one either. Anybody have a shrink ask you to do things that you just can't do?