Howdy all, Layed down on the train tracks last night - freight train is supposed to come through here at 3am; it never showed up (very strange, as it's been regular for the past several months). Feeling kinda trapped and powerless. Have uncontrollable laughing and crying episodes - keep it all well hidden from my dorm mates though - started talking to a bunch of people, no one else seems to know them though (not sure if it's just me, but they are real people - I can interact with them). Not happy, just feel like I'm losing my mind. Didn't get back to the dorm until 6am, which was extremely difficult considering I downed several fifths of hard alcohol (Whiskey and Vodka) - still feeling a bit drunk. Tonight I'm not sure what I'm going to do - maybe just drown myself in the alcohol and sadness and see where I end up.