I find that I can no longer function as a person any more, my flashbacks are happening more and more frequently, becoming more and more vivid. :sad: I was trying to read a book a friend sent me and I must have dozed off because the next thing the police were knocking at the door because the neighbour had heard me screaming and shouting :nerves: they thought someone was getting hurt (to late for that) I explained to the police what was happening and they confirmed it through some phone calls.
Apart from my over whelming guilt about those I have hurt the PTSD is a war waged on another front the slightest thing will trigger it something I read, something I smell, something I see on TV or a noise :sad: it's grinding me down, burying me under an avalanche of emotions. It happens anywhere any time it's become to much I can't have my children deal with this it isn't the right thing to do. I've given up asking or waiting for help I thought I could live with it BUT I can't and I won't :blub: :blub:
Apart from my over whelming guilt about those I have hurt the PTSD is a war waged on another front the slightest thing will trigger it something I read, something I smell, something I see on TV or a noise :sad: it's grinding me down, burying me under an avalanche of emotions. It happens anywhere any time it's become to much I can't have my children deal with this it isn't the right thing to do. I've given up asking or waiting for help I thought I could live with it BUT I can't and I won't :blub: :blub: