Hiya, iv just found this forum. Im feeling pretty broken right now. I was in hospital for the past week, and on the day i left, some one else in the military who thinks they know my sitituation had a good rant at me. Im past the point of careing about him or anyone else in the military. They dont understand , they just think everyone should conform and work normaly. Well i dont. My doctors are sending me to rehab soon, just to learn how to be my self again. Some days i think im just holding my life together through some sort of mental storm. My doctors are good , but theres only one way to get over this. And thats to pack away all my military photos and memrobilia i have picked up whilst being in iraq or where ever. I m removing my veterans badge, my contract with the army will end soon. Iv long since stopped wearing a uniform and calling people sir. Im civilian now, and it beats through my heart like the army is just a bad memory. Shout at me all you want army NCOs, im laughing , because for the past 4 months , iv been attending Univeristy :biggrin: now whos had the last laugh?