In the past, I had a ritual where every time I didn't stick to my plan, I cut myself. They were not necessarily emotionally charged cuts, nor were they severe, they just acted as a reminder of how much of a failure I am. It motivated me to do well so I would not have to cut myself. I've recently started doing this again. Every day that I digest food (aside from popcorn, and a couple other safe foods within my limits), I have to cut myself. I was forced to do so today. I know it doesn't solve anything, but I feel like I need to be punished for my sins. I feel like such a failure lately. :sad: Am I weird? :unsure: Anyone else have weird rituals like this?