I feel so stupid... Because of a pre-existing condition, I don't get hungry very often at all. Maybe once a week, my body will say to itself; "Oh! I need to eat! Get some food into me, quick!" but as for the rest of the time, I have an alarm on my phone that goes off 2 times a day to remind me to eat. Lately I have been ignoring it. I just don't care anymore. I feel fat and useless and ugly and just want to stop completely. I'll use not feeding myself and emotionally-induced purging as punishment for being useless... I know it's not going to help my self image, obviously- but I just don't care anymore. What am I supposed to do at this point? How do I stop making excuses to punish myself through these means? All of this stress building up is not helping me to want to feed myself... I just want to waste away.