I'm wondering what is anyone's take is on the idea of more or less purging, or ruminating in the issues to get over it. It all gets overwhelming so I tend to ignore it. I try very hard not to think about it at all, but there are times I can't help it. So what's better? Swim around in the muck for a while or keep trying to avoid the puddles and blindly stumble into it? Choose it or let it take you by surprise? I don't like lingering in my filth, I prefer to pretend it never happened but things bring it up. This gs bring up different things. I end up remembering things that don't help in the sense that I just keep hurting. I have this ability sometimes to draw, just let the pen go. I feel rotten on the inside for a while, but sometimes it passes faster. I say sometimes because it isn't a guarantee. I have been feeling off lately though. I really don't want to dive into more issues, not yet. I haven't been able to see my therapist, can't afford the co-pay, and in the face of possibly moving again I don't want to start over again,and just wait to find out if we are leaving. I am watching others who have been abused in... ways I don't want to talk about, and they all seem to be able to move on, it doesn't bother them on a daily basis. They have resolve that it wont. I can't do that. I feel so ashamed.. Anyway, thoughts comments questions and answers are sought here.