I'm tired of asking this question and having it shrugged off. Each night I come back from class and have homework to do. Each night I ask myself the same question: Why do it? I have never found an answer. Sometimes I do it and sometimes I don't. I am starting to fail routinely now, and while the question "Why continue"/"Why strive" has been there for years now, it's of particular pre-eminence now that there appears literally not to be a purpose to continue exerting myself in the minimal fashion I've kept up so far; after all, if I decide to do my work twenty five days out of fifty, I fail. So what's the point in trying at all? If I can't get an answer to this question, I am going to fail my only class this quarter. If I fail this class, my parents are not going to pay for my next class. It's deeper than that. If I can't find a "why", I won't be able to hold down a job (know this for a fact because about three weeks ago I lost my first job.. walked off it in the middle of my shift because I was sick and tired of being there and was subsequently terminated). I think I am at a turning point whether I wanna be there or not and need an answer.