Ive had a really bad week,I posted earlier this week about how I know that I'm going to end up killing myself soon and Ive just been pushed over the edge. It may sound silly, but sometimes the smallest things are enough. My friend just had an argument with me over something really really stupid and basically said she doesnt want to be friends again. I know it sounds silly but because of the week Ive had I just feel like taking those pills again. My dads just been in the hospital and come back with boxes of painkillers and Im so close to taking them. Me and my friend were very close and if I was feeling like this I would maybe have tried to talk to her about it but obviously I cant now. I just feel pushed over the edge.