I'm going to end this miserable existence.. the only opportunity i had to get on my feet and be in a mentally "safe" environment has failed. Big surprise there.. my health has declined to the point i can't even barely get out of bed the last 2 days. things keep getting worse, and the hole im in both financially and situation wise keeps getting dug deeper. dont see ANY way out of this now. there ISNT any way out.. my family ignores the fact that i'm PLEADING for help with what i'm going through. their solution is "Get off your pity pott" which i'm so tired of hearing. i can sit and scream and cry for help their reactions are get off my pity pott or to scream back at me and verbally bash me.everyone calls my bluff, or brushes me off.. they seem to think this is a joke and it's NOT. i'm staring at a bottle of sedatives, and peace is contained within it.