Today at work, when I put on my working clothes, I looked at myself in the mirror. And I saw that I now have a butt and thighs. My upper body is as skinny as usual with ribcage, spine and no breasts, but obviously I look a little more like a woman now. I've got hips and that must mean that I've put on weight. How did this happen?! I DON'T wanna look like a woman, I wanna be too skinny. It has become a part of my identity I think and now it's slipping away... And I'm quite scared. What if I become bulimic again because of it... Never ending circle?