This sucks. Its 11:00 A.M. been awake since 8:00 A.M. and haven't moved from bed. Hate this crap. Can't get motivated for anything. Enough of that venting though. What do you do when you know you're suffering from depression but can't be diagnosed because: 1. You don't have money and aren't sure about whether or not you're insured. And 2. You don't want to worry family or friends? Some background information. In my 20s. Bullied in high school slightly. No real relationship with a girl yet. Over the last 6 months I've become very reserved and to myself. (was never real out going to begin with though.) Can't get motivated to do things I once enjoyed and any time I do, I lose interest in finishing what I start. Lost my job about a month ago, not sure how, just happened. Every day thoughts of death and whats on the other side pop into my head. Probably think about that at least half a day on really bad days. Know how I would kill myself if I really wanted to. And finally, I can't cry even though I'd like to sometimes.