There were times in my life that I was so driven toward edges, all I could think about was suicide. Fortunately I am still alive but it has been painful experiences. I often wonder why life has to be so hard like this. If I could just lead ordinary, happy life like normal people, I would be content without rich and fame. But there are so many things going wrong in my life such as severe depression and lust problem. They hampered my life so much despite my efforts. I know everyone has problems. But I only wish my problems were manageable and not so debilitating. I also wonder why God even put me in this world to go through terrible pains like this in the first place. I hope somehow God talks to me to put an end to this painful suffering called "life." Everyday is too painful to get by when you even get verbally abused by ur own parents. Why did God put me in this world in the first place if life is to be this unbearable? I am lost at understanding God's intentions for me.