I've been suicidal my whole life, but lately it's gotten to its worst point again. I'm 16 and my mother has been making things much MUCH worse. Right now she's really violent and almost pushing me to end it. The main reason it's coming back is because of court/school, though there are plenty of other reasons to add to that... I'd rather not discuss them. I've missed almost 100 days because of illness and depression, and I really can't take all of the court things anymore. I'm pretty much doomed at this point... My mother lies all of the time... So if any of this is incorrect could you please tell me? She said that if I tell anyone (Doctor/Psychiatrist/Human Service Worker/etc.) that I've been suicidal that I won't go to a mental hospital but rather I'll be sent away. She said that if I tell the judge in court that I'm extremely suicidal he'll say that he doesn't care and send me to a juvenile home of some sort. She said that if I do go to a mental hospital on my own and tell them that I'm suicidal that they will refuse to let me in. She said that if I do get into one that they'll never let me out. She also said that it doesn't matter if I am in one and I am extremely suicidal, the judge can still take me out of it and send me to some juvenile home with all of the criminals. There was something else, but she got really violent at this point and auto save didn't save it... I think she doesn't want me to go to one because I call tell them all of the things she has ever done to me and she'll go to jail as a result. She's causing me to lose my sanity right now so I'm gonna end it here.