I may have diabetes. My aunt had it she lost her leg and died at 50. I am not good with restricting eating, I love sweets and stuff, I know that if I get diabetes I will not be able to manage it and will die a horrible death. So I find out in a few days if I have it. If I do have it, I think I will decide to commit suicide. My question is this - is it better for friends and family not to know its coming? Like I shouldn't talk about what I'm planning to do or drop any hints so they won't know? Or should I try to prepare them? Should I give or will my posessions away to friends, will they like to have them or will that make it harder in the long run? How can I make it easy on the people who care about me, cushion the blow as much as possible? Make them realize that its not their fault or anything, because I wouldn't want any one to think that.