Ok, I know this is a question I probably don't need to ask because there's a whole forum dedicated to the topic, but I need to hear the answers directed at me I suppose...So what I wanted to know was; To those of you who have lost a family member to suicide, how did your life change after it happened, and what do you feel about it now if its been 1 or more years since the death. I know there's a lot of guilt anger, and depression involved, but what I'm asking for is specifics, the kind of things that are hard to share, for example - "I felt a burden lifted from me..." "I started going to church..." "my life didn't change at all, just miss her".... those sorts of things. Please feel free to post anonymously if it's to hard to say. And please be completely honest. I just need to know. Thanks.