To all those who used to count me as a friend: Has enough time passed so that we could maybe be friends again? A lot of things were said, a lot wasn't said or listened to, things were said to other people, things that weren't said were thought to have been said by other people who actually didn't but yet more people were caught up in it... blah, you get the picture. I could've done better, could've had a bit more humility, could've actually listened to other people instead of just going off half-cocked like the idiot I can be in a crisis. What I wanna know is, is there any hope that I could maybe just not be left alone right now? All last night I tried to stop myself from killing myself or cutting myself. I managed it but I don't think I can do it again alone. I don't need anyone to save me or keep me going, I wont go back down into that black abyss of pain ever again. But it would help so much if just a few people would say "hey, saved a seat for you mate, you were a wanker but in the great sceme of things it means fuck all now" or does it still mean things? Have I burnt my bridges too many times? Please tell me honestly.