I have been cutting myself for 4 or 5 years now. Recently I have started putting hot metal on my self. Even more recently, I have started thinking about dying, death, and suicide in a morbidly fascinated kind of way. I have tonnes of stupid shit going on in my life. Maybe I want to tell you guys all about it and converse - gain information and hear stories - going back and forth with relatable folks, maybe I just want to see you guys ask me some questions so I know someone gives a hoot, and will not respond. Maybe I am enjoying reading your guys similar stories so much I just want to be a part of it. Really, I have no idea why I am posting this. I just really, really enjoy hurting myself. Cheers.