When I read the literature designed to keep suicidal folk living for one more day, I'm always struck by the way they talk. It's very much a case (or at least seems to me to be) that they think that we all want to live, deep down, but that outside forces are making it so that death is preferable to the way life is AT THE MOMENT. That it is the only way out of our current situation but that we're fighting to get through that situation so that we can come out the other side - still alive. We just need to be reminded that 'this too will pass' or that we're strong. Is that how it is with everyone else? Do you all feel that way? Or is there, perhaps, someone out there that feels like me - the opposite. I WANT to die. To be gone. To have nothing left of me anymore. It's outside forces that keep conspiring to keep me here (that and the fact that I'm a pathetic coward). I actively RESENT the people in my life, that force me to live (not that they know I want to die). I want there to be no-one, no reason for me to live so that I can finally go through with it without feeling that I'm letting everybody down. Telling me to fight isn't the answer. I'm fighting to die. Does anyone else feel like that or is it just me?