So, let me start by saying thanks to lots of people here, you guys have made it so that at the very least I don't feel so alone. But I have some questions, and I don't know if this is the right place for them, so please move this or send me a PM so I know if this was wrong. Where to start looking for help? I don't even know where to begin. I don't know if I need to be inpatient, but I know that I frequently have suicidal ideation, and have (more than once) had full plans and been ready to go. I know I need help, I just don't know how to say those words (or who to) I guess at least for now that's it (I thought I had more). I guess I'm just scared right now, my anxiety is getting in the way of even wanting to get help. Anyways, thank you.