My intension is not really to die, I just want the ability to if I decide I have to. I want to know what is the most painless way to die. I am not ready to make the decision yet, but if things get really bad, I want to have a fast and easy way out. I just want the means of suicide to be hidden from any searches, such as <mod edit:methods>. I am just looking for suggestions on where to get <mod edit:methods> and how I can test it, to make sure its the genuine stuff and not something else. I have a really high resistance to poison so I would need a supply large enough to kill a herd of elephants. Although I have been depressed all my life and tried every anti-depressant nothing works. Just to repeat I genuinely do not wish to kill myself yet, I just want to have the ability to quickly if I have to.