I've posted about my job problems in the past and I'm sorry if this is redundant because I know that I have vented and written about this a lot on the forums. I have been struggling at work for about a year. When I first started at this job it was a family owned business and I loved working there at that time. Now it's owned by a religious corporation. I am leaving the particular religion out on purpose because I don't want to offend anyone, however that is part of my personal problems at work.
There is no chance for upward mobility or a raise anymore. Multiple people have tried, someone only asking for 50 cents more and getting denied. The chance for upward mobility for women is even slimmer as the head honchos are all men. To make matters worse, upwards mobility is impossible for people who are not the religion of the company, which of course I'm not. This past spring I got a horrible performance review. I basically got a D. It was shocking and humiliating. I am one of the most qualified people at my job and I was denied a position because I am not the religion.
Now I know my days are numbered. I am in a training position until the end of the year and am eligible for the license I went to school for. I am not sure if or what the company is planning, but I have been networking and I plan on applying to jobs in November and December. Before my hope was to find something before the end of the year so I can leave my job for a new one.
However at this point, for my own sanity and well being I think I should leave this job no matter what. It's either that or I stick around long enough for them to find a bogus reason to fire me. I have no reason to stay there. This job has caused the majority of my anxiety and depression for this year and I even began to have physical symptoms from stress and unhappiness. I'd rather walk away with some dignity and my head held high and not be booted out of the door.
It feels crazy to risk a period of unemployment, but I feel like my mental health is the most important thing. I know I will snap if I stay at this job after this year. I have been saving up money and been mulling this over for months and everything points to just leaving. It's scary but just thinking of handing in my resignation already makes me feel relieved and calm.
Thank you to whoever reads all of this. For some reason I just really needed to write it out.
There is no chance for upward mobility or a raise anymore. Multiple people have tried, someone only asking for 50 cents more and getting denied. The chance for upward mobility for women is even slimmer as the head honchos are all men. To make matters worse, upwards mobility is impossible for people who are not the religion of the company, which of course I'm not. This past spring I got a horrible performance review. I basically got a D. It was shocking and humiliating. I am one of the most qualified people at my job and I was denied a position because I am not the religion.
Now I know my days are numbered. I am in a training position until the end of the year and am eligible for the license I went to school for. I am not sure if or what the company is planning, but I have been networking and I plan on applying to jobs in November and December. Before my hope was to find something before the end of the year so I can leave my job for a new one.
However at this point, for my own sanity and well being I think I should leave this job no matter what. It's either that or I stick around long enough for them to find a bogus reason to fire me. I have no reason to stay there. This job has caused the majority of my anxiety and depression for this year and I even began to have physical symptoms from stress and unhappiness. I'd rather walk away with some dignity and my head held high and not be booted out of the door.
It feels crazy to risk a period of unemployment, but I feel like my mental health is the most important thing. I know I will snap if I stay at this job after this year. I have been saving up money and been mulling this over for months and everything points to just leaving. It's scary but just thinking of handing in my resignation already makes me feel relieved and calm.
Thank you to whoever reads all of this. For some reason I just really needed to write it out.