Found this on the psychology of young adults which I think sums up where I am at. My entire life goal right now is based around finding love for the first time. It means more than it should, but because i have failed to get it and the older I get the more I crave intimacy. I can't stand this "you need to love yourself first" bullshit. I can, and sometimes do, it doesnt make a difference if you're not in the circumstances to meet the opposite sex. The next step in my life is to have love, no matter what anyone says I cant get away from that need and its immense power over me. Subsquently I cannot get on with the rest of my life without this important stage.