You know what I'm tired of? I'm tired of meeting the wrong kind of crowd and getting involved in their awful ways. I feel like a sign is hung on me that says "Hey! Since I'm not an average human being, you can use me and give me a bad reputation and I won't care at all!". NO! NO YOU FUCKIN CAN'T! I'M SICK OF IT! People call me a bitch all the time. Well you wanna know why I'm such a bitch? I have to be cause every time I'm a decent human being I get stomped all over and used! I'd much rather be hated and respected than loved and trashed. Why even talk to me if you don't care about me or like me!? Seriously, you're as pathetic as I am if you waste your time with me and don't even like me. Why don't you go join the rest of your 'daffodils' and 'Einsteins' and let me be with people who actually do care about me? My mother always tells me to be more social, but whenever I am more social and meet people, I somehow get involved with the wrong crowd. I even had to tell my mother one time that a friend kept talking about knocking me up soon. I'm 15 years old! ONE OF MY OWN FRIENDS. Of course we aren't friends anymore though and I don't let nobody harm me in that way. I am guilty of doing one thing though.. Sexting. An ex friend of mine kept pressuring me to do it, so I foolishly gave in -_-. Turns out half the time it was his girlfriend checking his phone, so I got busted and humiliated on so many levels. And what did he do about it? He smarted off and said "Shouldn't sin Miranda". I was like "YOU STUPID A$$HOLE!". I still feel bad about what I did though and feel like it was my fault mainly, especially with him having a girlfriend. I wasn't gonna include that in this rant but its been bottled up for a while now. After that, it seemed like I started to get a 'cheap easy slut' title. Thats not who I am! God I'm so tired of meeting people who humiliate me and give me a bad name! :cry: Its gotten to a stage where I'm paranoid and frightened to meet new people unless they are on here cause I trust this site. I'll say this though, I'm not gonna be as sweet and easily fooled as I was before after this day. So yeah, sorry about the language and sorry if I'm not allowed to talk about what I mentioned. By the way, if somebody has even been in my position before or currently is, you can talk about it if you want to. I love hearing from people that have been through what all I have.