Hi everyone, Well I was here a while back. I don’t know why I came back since it wont change anything I’m 25 and have been clinically depressed since the age of 8. I have a wife I have 2 kids I want to die more than ever. For those of you who think getting a girlfriend will help … it wont … it just makes things harder. I did my first suicide attempt I was 9 … I wish I had gone through with it. People will tell you it will get better … it wont Doctors will tell you pills will work … it wont I don’t want to kill my self but I want to die more than anything else. With the amount of people that dies on this hell whole we call earth why cant it be me. Why cant I be hit by a car or struck from above. I cant kills my self because of my kids. I wouldn’t want someone telling them that their dad killed himself but I wouldn’t mind it if it was an accident or something. The older I get the more I get to know women the more I truly HATE every single one of them. People used to say to me women get better with age … they don’t they only get crazier and more desperate. My wife is the laziest women ever she never does anything for me or the kids and has trouble getting out of bed in the morning while I have to get up to go to work to put food on the table. I live each day never wanting to see the next I sleep each night never wanting to wake up I spend each waking moment praying for the sweet release of death. I know now life will never get better … it never does or it’s only momentarily I know now women are all the same … manipulative, controlling and totally irresonable I know now that nothing on this earth will ever make me happy. What choice do I have left. Live a life of sadness and pain for my kids Kill my self Get killed God I hate this fucking planet and the fucking human race if I could blow everything up and kill everyone on earth I would. edit: and i forgot to mention i was diagnosed last year as Bipolar after spending a few months in the hospital ... yea that didn't help either.