It's been exactly a year to the day, and it shouldn't still bother me but it does. Not hugely, i'm feeling the best I have in a long time and better than I ever did then, but it annoys me still. And I bet they don't even know what it is, or havent even thought about it. It just bugs me, not because I want it back, but because I dont understand it. Everybody else got it but me. Sorry for the rambling, im okay, just wanted to moan a bit. I bet they dont even read this, or if they do they wont know what i'm talking about. And that says it all. It really does.