Oh my god, I am so scared I just don't know what to do. I feel like I am in the same position as Daisychain. I had an appt with my cpn this morning, I was in & out within 20 mins - half an hour. I was completely honest & said that I was having suicidal thoughts. As always she asked what had changed, I said nothing had changed as far as I was concerned. She says 'oh well, we have been here before, come back in 3 weeks & see me'. Not bloody likely! Then this afternoon I had an appt with my psychologist, she asked how I was doing & I told her. She said she couldn't let me go till she spoke to my GP & made me sit in the waiting room. I sat there for 10 mins or so & then my anxiety got the better of me, so I just got up & left. That was an hour ago. I have missed calls on my mobile & house phone from the surgery but no message. I feel bad for leaving without saying anything cos she is really nice but I just couldn't handle it. Now I am terrified of the repercussions & what will happen to me. It would be so much better if I just killed myself the now, I can't stand not knowing what is going to happen. Oh my god they are phoning me again, I just want the phone to stop. Does anyone know if they can contact my next of kin if I haven't done anything? I don't want them phoning my mum or my fiance just cos I am not answering the phone.