I miss my mother. I don't know why, but it just hit me out of nowhere a little bit ago. And now I can't sleep because I feel so overwhelmed with grief/sadness. Which is not ideal as my alarm is gonna go off at 6am. As I have to work from 8am to 6pm 4 days straight. I wish mum could be here to see this. Would mum also be disappointed in me for choosing to work for another year and go to university next year rather than this year? Would she also not want to talk about it? There's so much more in my head right now but I just can't be arsed to write it all down right now. It hurts that I can't discuss the stuff that's been going on in my life with her. J is really great though. She just doesn't expect me to go back to university anymore and I can't convince her otherwise as she doesn't wanna hear about it. :sad: I'm so frustrated!!