Random thoughts....

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by foreveryoung, Feb 26, 2014.

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  1. foreveryoung

    foreveryoung Member

    I haven't been on here in a long time.. When I was 16, going on 17 I became really depressed.. I've always been quiet, socially awkward, weird and too sensitive.. I hated everything about myself and I constantly thought about suicide, telling myself that if things didn't get better, I'd do it eventually. I was just down all of the time and felt like I didn't belong. I'm 21 now, and I'm still quiet, socially awkward, weird and too sensitive, but over the past couple of years I've learnt to accept this and I feel so much stronger... I still get weird looks all of the time when I'm talking to random people.. they can tell I'm socially retarded and can't hold a conversation well, but I kind of just laugh it off now, I'm proud of myself for being a weirdo. It's strange, cause 3 or 4 years ago, I'd go out, talk to people, realise I can't socialise well and then I'd be depressed and pissed off all day.. now it doesn't bother me. I used to feel so out of place, like I didn't belong, and now I look at everyone else and feel sorry for them for wanting to feel so accepted. It's like I'm surrounded by robots, and I've accepted that we'll never understand each other but I'll accept them anyway... it's weird how things have changed, but I am weeeeeeeeeeeeird. Take care of yourselves, people
     
  2. Twocky61

    Twocky61 Banned Member

    I know where you are coming from Foreveryoung

    What is 'normal' anyway? 'Normal' is just what is socially accepted, so being 'normal' makes one a sheep

    So :yay: to you, I and everyone else who wants to be an individual Foreveryoung
     
  3. youRprecious!

    youRprecious! Antiquities Friend

    I applaud you too, forever........... your great strength is that you certainly have a mind of your own, and it's working for you. Wonderful! :)
     
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