Random Thoughts

Discussion in 'I Have a Question...' started by *dilligaf*, Dec 6, 2007.

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  1. *dilligaf*

    *dilligaf* Staff Alumni

    I have such random questions and thoughts going through my head. Need to get them out. Sorry...

    ~ I feel wrong talking about my Nan. Laughing and joking about her. It's wrong. She's dead and I shouldn't be like that.
    ~ Viks says she likes it when I talk about her because she gets to know her a bit more...think she just says that to make me happy
    ~ Mum keeps telling me I owe it to Nan to be happy. Well I can't be. She's gone and is never coming back. Why should I be happy?
    ~ Does that mean I am letting Nan down?
    ~ I want her back so much.
    ~ I don't feel suicidal anymore, in the sense of wanting to kill myself. But I want to be with her. Meaning I want to be dead I suppose.
    ~ I don't know how anyone can do this. How anyone can get through this. It's breaking me.
    ~ I feel like I should be more over this than I am.
    ~ Maybe it's because I hid it so much when it happened that it's all catching up with me now?

    ~ Why am I trying to push her away? The person I love, want and need?
    ~ Why is she still with me?
    ~ Does she even want to still be with me?
    ~ The comment about me going home alone for a few days sounded like much more to me
    ~ Are we really gonna let some tw@ts break us up?

    The worst thing is I will probably find more to add to this :unsure: :blink:
  2. GypsyGirl

    GypsyGirl Well-Known Member

    :hug: sam...
  3. *dilligaf*

    *dilligaf* Staff Alumni

    Thanks :smile:
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