I'm just upset with life. My mother moved down south right in the middle of the year and I was unable to go to college so i'm stuck here at home for the next 5 months. Before I left I used to visit my college, and there was this girl who worked at the coffee shop there. I'm not really into mushy romance on emotional stuff but I just felt good. It was the best cup of coffee I had and I only had one more day left before my mother moved so the next day I returned and I tried to find her but I couldn't. If my mother had only been less selfish I could of have met her and been in college. It sucks down here, I never see girls on a regular basis. I tried online dating but the girls on there are annoying, they are always complaining about some other guy and they are rude, unsexual and unromantic. And by unsexual I mean they have no flirting ability whatsoever. They jsut want to talk about boring stuff. And it kind of makes me depressed that I have to put up with this when I could of been back home, actual seeing girls on a regular basis. So my plan is to get a job, get a plane ticket and return to my old home town. I miss it, and I want to meet that girl I never got to meet hopefully if she is still working there. I'm not happy when i'm around girls anymore. And this has caused me to be unhappy in general. And I don't consider myself an over emotional person so i'm very surprised. I used to be glad to be around them but now I just feel depressed. I think it has something to do with my experiences online. And some of them don't even want you to flirt with them. Then why the hell are you on a dating site. All of this has caused me to rethink life in general and the way I look at things and I feel the meaning has been sucked out of my life. But that's ok, I just had this plane ticket idea for the longest time, and it just feels right. It gives me something to be happy about.