I have been talking to my psychologist. He's the only person who's willing to talk to me. Severe depression. Whatever that means. As if depression can be anything else other than 'severe'... I keep telling my psychologist that my suicide is a matter of when not if. I even told him about my Suicide Kit. A bottle of whiskey, box of razor blades and 30 bucks to rent a motel room for the occasion. Maybe thats why he insists I see him every week. He thinks we are making 'progress' though. Maybe that's why I am not warded. But then in Singapore u have to do something really drastic to get warded. Such as criticizing the government. Now, I want to make my position clear. I don't really condone suicide for those of you who live in First World countries. A country that provides welfare for citizens and ingrained beliefs in human rights means you have a chance to beat the system and live! On the other hand, if you are from a 3rd world country (Singapore in my case) where 'human rights' and 'welfare' are dirty words, you cannot help but have no hope... There is no light at the end of the tunnel. The government keeps telling us to work till we die. That our savings should be kept by the government. Tell me then, why should I live till a ripe old age? If the only thing I can look forward to is hard work and having my hard earned savings withheld by the government till the day I die? Remember Boxer the horse from 'Animal Farm'? Is that Life? I am not the only one who shares this thought. Already Singapore has a reputation as Suicide Capital of the World. Happy to be here to share my thoughts.