Mum now knows i cut :dry: was talking about someone else and she turned to me and asked if i still selfed harmed :huh: apparently when i took the OD on that Sunday my aunty asked if I'd been self harming as well. Then when mum saw my brother the next day he asked if i was still self harming, how the fuck would he know?! we ain't talked in over a year. So now I'm not even gonna attempted to talk to my aunty again because she'll just tell my mum. Wanna cut so badly right now. Might in a min. Need to find something to cut with first. Tried to cut the other night, couldn't even manage it cos i was so drunk. Feel a bit guilty over something. Maybe i shouldn't of let it happen? i dunno. Should of stopped it maybe? I'm trying to be there for everyone. One person in particular and i feel like I'm doing a shit job with them. Being no help what so ever. Trying to stay strong for them, trying to help them through it. Feel so fucking useless. and to start it all off again the paranoia is back. Great.