might trigger some people Thank you mom and dad, for everything. Thank you for leaving me next to a steel post that was only an inch or two in soft, wet ground, when I was a baby. Thank you for not caring enough to get me help for my problems, even though something was obviously wrong. Thank you for not noticing I had tried to kill myself in the first grade, and a few times later. Thank you dad, for yelling at me when I cried, and thank you mom, for telling me how miserable I made you. Thank you both, for all the times you argued with each other, while I sat in the other room praying and begging that the next thing I heard wasn't one of you screaming in pain for help as the other beat or stabbed you to death. Thank you for sometimes doing that right before I went to school. Thank you for the time you went up stairs and started screaming and yelling at my older brother, and then he started crying, Please stop please while you hit him. Thank you for making me so afraid that when I did something wrong, I'd start to shake, and I'd punish myself before you could. Thank you dad, for calling me names, and thank you mom, for being such a manipulative liar. Thank you both for laughing at my pain, and for telling me you didn't care. :i'm sorry: I wasn't worth it. First chance I get, I won't bother you anymore :cry: sorry for posting so much.